"Some songs are concepts, some are mixed, some are mastered. Either way this is me and my thoughts." - J. Braye
What Are We Doing Here (Duality)
This song is deep with it's meaning and you may not fully get it unless you are one of the chosen ones..lol Anyways, it's about the life cycle of live, death, and the journeys in between. Reflecting on the journey of the and asking, what are we doing here. Not like, what are we doing here on earth but why did we create sadness to accompany happiness and other opposites that are paradoxically in harmony with each other. Anyways, close your eyes and let your Inner Eye give you the archetypes (symbols) that this song represents.
Past Lives (Dissociation)
This song is about my meditative states. Early when I discovered meditation, I so fascinated about exploring my mind, seeing the colors the visions and etc. I was truly dissociated. At times when I wasn't meditating I was living in my head instead of in the present moment. Even thought I have evolved with my practice at times I still drift into my imagination. I guess it's nothing wrong with that. And, if you're wondering, the song is called past lives because I remember a few...lol
What Happened To Love
This song was inspired after my son and I was coming from a movie. There was a homeless man asking for change and so I rolled the window down to give him some money. I noticed the people around looking at me like I was a saint and other people had their windows tightly rolled up. So I thought to myself, what if that was an angel granting people access to heaven by an act of generosity. Just made me think, what happened to love. Now that I'm older, looking back on that song I think to myself that I was the one asking what happened to Love as in God and his existense in a world that appeared so cold to me...
Clip My Wings
I was inspired to write this song during a very pivotal point in my life. I was in ICU for 4 days and the doctors where saying that I may have had a heart attack. Going through that experience made me question life. I wasn't concerned with "chasing" the music dream any more. I was more interested in finding purpose to live, like why does bad things happen to good people. What is the point of existence and other questions of that nature. In my pursuit to truth I discovered meditation and it changed me. This song was expressing the pain I felt for my decision to give up the million dollar dream of being a famous producer to spiritual devotion. The problem was that during my drastic life change, a song I produced was one of the biggest club records that year. "I Look Good" by Chalie Boy. They found the track of my website I had showcasing my beats and made a hit record. I saw the most money I'd ever seen in my life and my friends and family knew this was my window of opportunity to change my life and theirs by pushing just a little bit further to get to the millions. At that time, I just couldn't do it. Nothing in this world (emphasis on this world) could have changed my mind. I was like Buddha under the tree, no worldly temptations could have effected my spiritual pursuit. So my decision to stay on my spiritual path and not pursue worldly richest disappointed so many people very close to me.
Hold My Hand
This song is about the beginning of my spiritual journey. I connected with the Greater part of myself. The channel of dialogue was opened never to be closed again. Really, realizing that the connection has always been there. Learning to live with and trust my Self. Feeling doubtful in my progress, connection going from a clear signal to feeling completely disconnected. I've been thru so many trails and tribulations to know that the Greater part of me is always there in this crazy dance called life.
I created this song to release my feelings about my Grandmother passing. I was in such a deep depression at that time that I was emotionally numb. I feel ashamed that I couldn't cry when everyone else was breaking down. As I have grown out of my state of depression, I realize that my pain was too strong for me to process so I became emotionally numb as a coping mechanism. I miss my Grandmother deeply and the only way for me to emotionally deal with it was through song, telling myself not to be sad because we are spiritual beings that have no beginning or end so there is no death. Now as I listen to it years later, my Creator sang the words to me in my time of need. Thank you my Friend for always being there.
I wrote this song some time ago, the Spirit can be so strong with messages that you won't catch until you are ready to receive it. I guess its like reading a book multiple times and different things standing out each time.
I was inspired to write this song after a conversation with a friend and artist like myself. He was feeling defeated because no matter how amazing his art was and the accomplishments he achieved, he was only getting criticism instead of praise by a person that was very close to him. His experience resonated deeply with me. I know what it feels like to possess an exceptional gift and be minimized by verbal slander. It's like having a child that colored a picture and they run in the room and say "Look at what I did!!!" with so much positive energy and excitement. Then, the response they receive isn't the same positive energy and excitement, they get "You messed up, that's not right, you colored outside of the lines". As an adult I've realized that we never lose our "inner child" that wants to express and share with our loved ones for approval but if we don't get that appreciation which says to the child, I love you and if you cared about it deeply then it's perfect to me, then it's like throwing a stone through the piece of our art.
I made this song for my wife, my life partner. My polar opposite that continues to help me learn more about myself. I love her for that and had to put it in a song. ;)